I wonder if I expect too much from people. If someone promises me something.. or assures me something will be done… am I wrong to be upset or disappointed when they don’t do it. In all honesty… I have my sights set pretty low as far as my expections are concerned. I ALWAYS expect something to go wrong… so why do I still feel upset when I am let down??? I dunno.. I’m just rambling…

I’ve been pretty stressed and short tempered since I sent the forms off to My Boy… Hes been so stupidly busy (Dew Action Sports Tour and back to work after 10 days off) that as yet the forms are still sitting on his counter waiting to be looked at. All he needs to do is go to CostCo and get his photos taken.. fill out and print 2 forms.. and copy some telephone bills and the engagement ring receipt and put them in the package.

I’m getting pretty whigged out that he hasn’t done this yet.. or at least… he hasn’t told me he has done this yet. There is still so much to do and get sorted.. and to begin with I was thinking “oh it’ll be in the very early part of next year” and now I just keep thinking.. Its almost September. they’re still processing forms with a receipt date of 9th May.. that means its taking them 4 months to do anything.. that means it’ll be January before they even send the package to the National Visa Center.. then its another month before being sent to the American Embassy.. then there is still the medical to schedule and the interview date… Its looking like April time before I’ll get to be with him… and I hate that..