I’m pissy.. I have been all week and I’m in a moaning and groaning mood… so here goes….

A couple of years ago The Firm merged with another company and became so big that we needed more office space… without going into too much detail this basically resulted in The Firm being split… and since that happened there has very much been a case of “them and us”…

Our office set up is quite odd in that in our other office we have 4 fee earners.. and 7 secretaries… and in the office that I work in we have 6 fee earners and 1 full time secretary (Mother)… 2 part time secretaries.. (Barbie and NTS) who jobshare so really only add up to one secretary.) I was Receptionist for a long time… 7 years… and TNR came in anticipation of my move to the States and since then… because of my experience and expertise I’ve been kind of an office manager/trouble shooter/IT and as a last resort… when absolutely necessary… a secretary.

Whilst I was home sick last week I was warned by Barbie that one of the secretaries in our other office had broken her wrist and that there was a huge suspision that I was going to be asked to decamp over to the other building and work alongside her doing the work that she cannot do.

This would.. under normal circumstances be completely acceptable… be completely ok with me… I am ALWAYS happy to help out when I can…. and I do…

However… NTS’s father was diagnosed some months ago with terminal lung cancer and he passed away whilst we were away on the Wedding vacation… so.. by her own admission.. NTS hasn’t been concentrating 100% on the job…. and as a result of this… Barbie has been drowning in a sea of paperwork and petitions for months.. and I’ve been in super helpful mode and have done everything I can to help. We have on a number of occassions asked if we can have some kind of back up from our other office. If only a secretary to do audio typing and nothing more and gotten no-where. What has to be borne in mind as well is that whilst I have been bailing out NTS and Barbie… my own work has been pushed onto the back burner… and has started to build up in a horrendous manner. So.. I’m pissed… I’m pissed at every single thing in the office right now.. because my work and another departments work has been well and truly put in their place in term of importance to the Firm.

I had a temper tantrum the like of which a 4 year old would be proud…. and in a way… I know it was childish to do it.. I know it was childish to behave that way… but.. and this is a BIG but… the complete double standard that has been adopted by The Firm in not only this instance of staff shortages but many many before it has completely disgusted me… and I’ve made sure that they know it….

*mumbles*

Was I meant to be making a point or was this meant to be just a rambling moaning post….

I think I’m just generally pissy because HB is away… shes been gone since Sunday and I miss her like crazy. I feel guilty that I had to pretty much “bribe” her emotionally to go with the explanation that this will most likely be the last time she spends time with Him before we move to the States (she wont want to go down to see him at Christmas because My Boy will be here). But to make matters worse shes texted me every day telling me what a shitty time shes having.. how much she misses me.. and how much she just wants to be home with me.

This makes me sad.

Add to this the Nice Next Door Neighbours have returned from their vacation. Why is this sad I hear one ask… well my NNDN has been told that a large melanoma that was removed from his face last month is malignant. He goes into hospital tomorrow to basically have half his face peeled back… the cancerous tissue removed.. and then his face stapled back down.. (this is the way he has described it to me).. Very dramatic is our Chris…

The Doctors apparently have no clue how far the cancer has spread and wont know until they actually get under his skin…

Reading back through this I realise thats my “Three”.. they say bad things come in threes.. well there was the news of my friends breast cancer (she is now coming to an end of her chemo).. NTS’s Father and his lung cancer… and now my NNDN and his diagnosis…

Why is it always the good people???