all in the past...

Its bitterly cold here…. and My Boy is on his way to sunny Florida… for two weeks vacation to round off his 5 weeks sabbatical.

I can’t believe that its almost over… his sabbatical.  It seems like only yesterday that he was telling me that he would do whatever he could to be with me during his sabbatical.. and then… not 24 hours later… he was e-mailing me to tell me that his mom had bought him tickets to go see them in Florida.  I was.. truth be told.. devastated.  We need so badly to spend time together… and this was the golden opportunity.  When he comes home from his sabbatical it’ll be back to the same routine of him working his ass off and us hardly talking… and I’m not looking forward to it.  Although we haven’t talked nearly as much as we used to.. we have talked alot these past few weeks.

I know for certain that I’ll not be able to visit this year… I’m in such a hole to the bank that I’m not going to do anything else tomake that hoel any deeper.  So the only way we will see each other is if he comes here.  And I don’t know when he’ll get another chance once his sabbatical is over.  And I don’t want to be a whiney bitch and moan about it or keep on about it.

I miss him… I miss him so badly my heart aches and I hope that this is the last vacation he takes to Florida without me.  Every time he has been since we have been together he has moaned bitterly once he is there that I’m not there with him… and there is a simple way around it.

Hannah Banana is home.. the house is full of her giggles and laughter again… and it sounds so great.  I know that I miss her when she isn’t around… but then.. when she comes home.. it makes me realise just how much I do miss her.  Shes not a happy bunny though… they sent her to bed at 9pm every night.. and she was woken up by screaming kids every morning at anything from 6.30 to 8am.  Oh… and most importantly of all… she missed a whole week of CSI.. CSI Miami.. and CSI New York… we’ll be watching every repeat possible this week.

OH… theres snow on the way….